bowler and rugger. not much of a difference. =)
yilyn's hand is so big it can cover rachel's face. right.
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haiyah! my two dearest friends have been whisked off to a land far far away called borneo. pls come back with exotic presents for me i'm in dire need for surprises and love. haha. miss u girls! i miss supper and study appointments and being just a phone call away~
hey today feels quite good for a start. haha maybe all bad things come to an end. probably not the best day in my life but i feel content enough. nice talking to yilyn. nice laughing with yuting about my stupid snickers that i took like an hour to finish. it's such a busy day and i think busy days are very nice to a large extent. it tires you out sufficiently and makes you feel so satisfied and useful.
i'm finally doing things that i like but there's still a dilemma (of CO or training?) haha. guess i have to put CO as priority for the week and the next as the competition is coming up. feeling abit guilty for skipping training but well i have to make a choice. hopefully i'm doing the right thing. please encourage me. honestly i love both ccas and the friends i have made.
oh and i guess the no-meat diet has somehow increased my energy level by making me feel 'lighter'. haha i didnt doze off during math lect today and i paid attention during physics tutorial. wasnt doing my best during the swim today...guess it's because the vinegar made my stomach churn and feel so acidic. till now i'm feeling weird. (eh hem i added lots of lime in my bee hoon for dinner and drank lemon tea as well.) my tummy feels as if its on fire! anyway, CO practice was satisfactory as well and i even stayed back volunteerily to practice these few bars with two other players. haha.
i'm hoping to get back on the right track in life now. (getting a good balance in studies and other important activities). :)
and to you: don't worry so much. things will turn out fine. at least you still have me!
i'm finally doing things that i like but there's still a dilemma (of CO or training?) haha. guess i have to put CO as priority for the week and the next as the competition is coming up. feeling abit guilty for skipping training but well i have to make a choice. hopefully i'm doing the right thing. please encourage me. honestly i love both ccas and the friends i have made.
oh and i guess the no-meat diet has somehow increased my energy level by making me feel 'lighter'. haha i didnt doze off during math lect today and i paid attention during physics tutorial. wasnt doing my best during the swim today...guess it's because the vinegar made my stomach churn and feel so acidic. till now i'm feeling weird. (eh hem i added lots of lime in my bee hoon for dinner and drank lemon tea as well.) my tummy feels as if its on fire! anyway, CO practice was satisfactory as well and i even stayed back volunteerily to practice these few bars with two other players. haha.
i'm hoping to get back on the right track in life now. (getting a good balance in studies and other important activities). :)
and to you: don't worry so much. things will turn out fine. at least you still have me!
- Mood:
satisfied
there's always some reason to feel not good enough.
i need some distractions.
i need some distractions.
- Mood:
distressed
the past hour was a gruelling one. lucky for now, i feel that everything is okay. sometimes, i just feel like disappearing from the face of earth. i am such a failure in so many ways. i don't know what to do with myself.
- Mood:
sad
it's definitely not me to forget about everything and not care anymore. just to show others that i'm not what they think i am. i cannot bring myself to let loose about this very important group of people to me. to you, everyone seems to have an ulterior motive. note: ulterior as in negative. so it's about status and recognition? to you maybe life is like that. i know it probably is. to me, it's plain passion and love for what i like to do. i don't do something so i can be someone else. for one minute today, during math lecture, i felt like crumbling and then give up on everything that i've been trying to do. all the effort made in bringing everyone together. and just simply trying to show how much joy and love one can find in this group of people eventually. for one minute, i thought like that. and then i thought: why the hell should i care? if that's what other people will think, then i want to let them be. i believe time will tell all. for one, you don't even know me.
then again, ignoring the eyes and comments, lies and backstabbing of others (people who i even consider friends),may be easier said than done. being yourself may be easier said than done. but i try. i always try.
on a side note, i seriously need to change my attitude towards school and my studies. seems like i'm just giving everything up for polo. today's dinner was rather dismal. no one seemed interested except for the few usual people. but at least i see their perseverence during training which is rather satisfying. things are going to be so different and i will have to adapt. *sighs* not a very happy change for me but i will get over it eventually.
(on boonliang's blog: i never knew there was this side to chuanyang. he's hilarious.)
then again, ignoring the eyes and comments, lies and backstabbing of others (people who i even consider friends),may be easier said than done. being yourself may be easier said than done. but i try. i always try.
on a side note, i seriously need to change my attitude towards school and my studies. seems like i'm just giving everything up for polo. today's dinner was rather dismal. no one seemed interested except for the few usual people. but at least i see their perseverence during training which is rather satisfying. things are going to be so different and i will have to adapt. *sighs* not a very happy change for me but i will get over it eventually.
(on boonliang's blog: i never knew there was this side to chuanyang. he's hilarious.)
- Mood:
cynical
LOVE is forgiveness and tolerence.
there are so many people i love. and i know they love me too.
monday: 2.4km + handball during training=dead tired
tuesday: loneliness while waiting for CO to start at 6.30pm. argh. BUT! soccer at the pool!
wednesday: timing taken for sprints and 100m + body assessment. i grew by 2cm! and my body fat percentage dropped a wee bit. haha.
thursday: soccer at ij with shimah, yuting and zhengjie. *very good.*
friday: captain's ball + water rugby=madness. they guys cannot touch the girls but the girls can touch the guys. so you can imagine what happened. all the scratches they received and there was no foul so you can do whatever you want. alvin was bleeding la. his wound was verrry verrryy deep. haha. dun even know who the hell was so vicious to him.
okay off to do CIP now. but first i need to find people to go for lunch with me!
this was during civics. the stupid pick-out-one-social problem thing...
clar is so fat he totally covered esmo.
this is much better.
clar is so fat he totally covered esmo.
this is much better.
i dislike my community service essay. honestly. it's so cliche and quite pointless. it's so standard and not outstanding. i really don't think i deserve the marks. haha. but whatever. i owned! HEHE.
oh yah. and i dislike my recent entries...too emo for my liking. yucks.
oh yah. and i dislike my recent entries...too emo for my liking. yucks.
- Mood:
content
'you like that person's smell. not his looks, or voice or whatever'...
o.O
haha sex sells. it solves all.
o.O
haha sex sells. it solves all.
- Mood:
happy
today is a very sad day. fullstop.
i know the grey clouds are staying abit longer than they should. i hope they will go away. if you're sad, know that i'm always smiling when i think of how wonderful you are.
i know the grey clouds are staying abit longer than they should. i hope they will go away. if you're sad, know that i'm always smiling when i think of how wonderful you are.
- Mood:
thoughtful
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